I recognize the need for change and growth because: I am a lazy asshole who did absolutely none of the required work on time and that makes me feel shitty.
I have no priorities, I have no contextual issues. I'm doing my best to get better and that in and of itself is important to me. I honestly am glad that I acknowledged a while ago that I am a good person, I just have some really negative traits that I need to work out and I will work them out. I have a great support group since coming out of the ward, I've made some amazing self discoveries and the weird blog that you're having us do (though it seems to have no connection to your class) is actually very helpful in keeping me on track. Even though I'm always late with it.
The outcome of my change and growth will be: (as cheesy as this is) a better and more productive me that hopefully won't flunk out of school.
My plan: Follow around my best friend and try to be as awesome as he is and productive.
I really don't know what else to say during this blog post. So I hope you found and read what you needed.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Mentoring Planning
Need for mentoring:
I want to learn to become more focused and motivated. I want to actually finish a project, actually do my homework on time (laughs because I'm posting this disgustingly late), lose weight and kiss boys/girls.
I'm not very motivated, ever.
I have selected my friend Sunshine as my mentor, though he is entirely unaware of that fact. Sunshine is my best friend, I've slept with him a few times and I am infatuated with him. Not in a romantic way, strangely enough. I've become dependent on our friendship and without him I'd be in a very bad place a lot of the time. I've chosen him as my mentor because he strives to use his wisdom to help those around him and actually a lot of the time has.
I will not ever tell him that he is in a mentoring position with me. I will just be more subservient and more observant of the way he lives his life. I already meet with him everyday and he helps improve my life all the time anyway.
My goals are just to be a better person and to do what I can to be productive. I'll know everything is working when he compliments me, because it's rare for him to be nice to me. (even as my best friend). And to reward my growth and improvement I will probably have sex. A lot of sex. And it will be fun.
My final success will be when I have programmed my video game.
As for ending the mentoring relationship, I will not be doing that. He will be doing that when he progresses with his life and goes to his new school next semester. I will either find another mentor or will do my best to improve on my own.
I will miss him, but I'm glad that I've known him and I can't wait to take all I can learn from him in the short time I have with him.
I want to learn to become more focused and motivated. I want to actually finish a project, actually do my homework on time (laughs because I'm posting this disgustingly late), lose weight and kiss boys/girls.
I'm not very motivated, ever.
I have selected my friend Sunshine as my mentor, though he is entirely unaware of that fact. Sunshine is my best friend, I've slept with him a few times and I am infatuated with him. Not in a romantic way, strangely enough. I've become dependent on our friendship and without him I'd be in a very bad place a lot of the time. I've chosen him as my mentor because he strives to use his wisdom to help those around him and actually a lot of the time has.
I will not ever tell him that he is in a mentoring position with me. I will just be more subservient and more observant of the way he lives his life. I already meet with him everyday and he helps improve my life all the time anyway.
My goals are just to be a better person and to do what I can to be productive. I'll know everything is working when he compliments me, because it's rare for him to be nice to me. (even as my best friend). And to reward my growth and improvement I will probably have sex. A lot of sex. And it will be fun.
My final success will be when I have programmed my video game.
As for ending the mentoring relationship, I will not be doing that. He will be doing that when he progresses with his life and goes to his new school next semester. I will either find another mentor or will do my best to improve on my own.
I will miss him, but I'm glad that I've known him and I can't wait to take all I can learn from him in the short time I have with him.
Reading Log
I read this book the other night, it was loaned to me by a friend.
Cruel Beauty. Sadly I am not aware of the page length.
My purpose was to read an erotic and sad tale about a Demon and his Lover.
I expected to read this book in a few days. However, it was very catching and I read the entire thing in four hours. I stayed up from 11pm until 3am.
A major problem I have when it comes to reading is not staying up all night. Unfortunately I broke performance criteria then.
I was already very aware of all the vocabulary in the book so I did not need to look anything up.
I read through everything with ease. I did not need to take notes or look anything up. The book was wonderful and I recommend it.
My strength as a reader is still there. I may not be very studious, but I do read. A lot.
What I learned from this experience is that my friends are into weird things and I should borrow books more often. I didn't have any questions while reading.
Cruel Beauty. Sadly I am not aware of the page length.
My purpose was to read an erotic and sad tale about a Demon and his Lover.
I expected to read this book in a few days. However, it was very catching and I read the entire thing in four hours. I stayed up from 11pm until 3am.
A major problem I have when it comes to reading is not staying up all night. Unfortunately I broke performance criteria then.
I was already very aware of all the vocabulary in the book so I did not need to look anything up.
I read through everything with ease. I did not need to take notes or look anything up. The book was wonderful and I recommend it.
My strength as a reader is still there. I may not be very studious, but I do read. A lot.
What I learned from this experience is that my friends are into weird things and I should borrow books more often. I didn't have any questions while reading.
Team Assessment
Team Assessment Blog assignment.
Name: Raina Melendez
Team Members: Chris, Aaron, Nick, Angelia, Nicole
Two greatest strengths:
I will start by saying that it is very obvious that we are not the greatest team. We all have our faults and could do well if we actually weren't too lazy to try anything half of the time.
Chris has charisma. Nick is the pretty face and the presenter. Angelia and Nicole don't really fit in much and resign to do things on their own and Aaron is the amazing tech guy who throws the powerpoints together. I am very determined when it comes to the group projects.
Obviously we each have a bit that we could bring to the table. When it comes to the actual implication of our strengths is where we falter.
Two Areas that need improvement:
Communication and politics.
We don't have a leader. And, if we communicated we'd all probably realize that the best one for the job is Chris. I am lazy and even though I am willing to do the work, my natural submissive personality dictates that I need to have someone in command tell me what to do. Aaron, lacking self esteem and bursting about the seams with cynicism is absolutely perfectly suited for his job as tech man. Angelia and Nicole would do well to provide him with links and materials, Chris would be best at delegating to us and Nick is naturally the most obvious choice for presentation.
My insights:
People, especially college students, in my experience have never done very well in group work. Human beings are selfish, lazy and terrible creatures that need guidance at virtually all hours. We possess the qualities necessary to work in teams but without a very positive leader and intelligible communication we will fail.
In times of stress and pressure we will put together a half ass and haphazard project in hopes of getting a decent grade. That's how schooling always is.
And that's really all I have to say on the matters of forced socialization and graded unified effort.
Name: Raina Melendez
Team Members: Chris, Aaron, Nick, Angelia, Nicole
Two greatest strengths:
I will start by saying that it is very obvious that we are not the greatest team. We all have our faults and could do well if we actually weren't too lazy to try anything half of the time.
Chris has charisma. Nick is the pretty face and the presenter. Angelia and Nicole don't really fit in much and resign to do things on their own and Aaron is the amazing tech guy who throws the powerpoints together. I am very determined when it comes to the group projects.
Obviously we each have a bit that we could bring to the table. When it comes to the actual implication of our strengths is where we falter.
Two Areas that need improvement:
Communication and politics.
We don't have a leader. And, if we communicated we'd all probably realize that the best one for the job is Chris. I am lazy and even though I am willing to do the work, my natural submissive personality dictates that I need to have someone in command tell me what to do. Aaron, lacking self esteem and bursting about the seams with cynicism is absolutely perfectly suited for his job as tech man. Angelia and Nicole would do well to provide him with links and materials, Chris would be best at delegating to us and Nick is naturally the most obvious choice for presentation.
My insights:
People, especially college students, in my experience have never done very well in group work. Human beings are selfish, lazy and terrible creatures that need guidance at virtually all hours. We possess the qualities necessary to work in teams but without a very positive leader and intelligible communication we will fail.
In times of stress and pressure we will put together a half ass and haphazard project in hopes of getting a decent grade. That's how schooling always is.
And that's really all I have to say on the matters of forced socialization and graded unified effort.
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